Well, I've gone public with the news that I am now a separated woman. Someone referred to me as being single again but I don't think that's really quite the case. Single implies that I'm available for a relationship and maybe even looking for one but that certainly ain't the case!
Telling people has been quite difficult. Obviously I had time to get used to the idea before starting to speak to our friends and family. Some of their reactions have been quite surprising!!! People have been shocked (hell, so were we!) but sometimes when people don't know what to say they say the most stupid things. One day I'll write them all down!
Already people are avoiding my eye, clearly not knowing what to say. And some people haven't contacted me even though I know they know. Just tell me you don't know what to say. Or give me a hug. I've done my crying so am unlikely to dissolve into a flood of tears and embarrass anyone.
So this blog will be a record of my journey into the great unknown. Don't worry I won't get too deep or too personal. And I certainly won't be slagging anyone off. I was married to a good man for a long time and he's someone I want to keep in my life. That's the bit that will be hard as we find a way to create a relationship that works for us and our children.
A very dear friend suggested I write a list of all the things I would like to do. That's been a very exciting and illuminating exercise! And if I'm honest a wee bit scary. The possibilities are endless.
Stick with me as I play around with the blog getting it the way I like. I'm going to try to post every day. I want to be able to look back one day and think "Wow, look how far I've come!"
See you soon