- I'm a 45 year old mother of 3 boys. I live in a beautiful old house that needs a lot of TLC with my youngest son and 2 dogs. I am working hard at keeping myself healthy and fit by working out and doing a spot of running. I'm a creative person and am passionate about keeping traditional skills alive. I cook, knit, bake, garden, preserve, read, write and am now learning to spin and quilt. Oh and I sometimes swear.....
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
How do you eat an elephant?
I will never get tired of saying thank you to all my friends. You all know I'm a fun runner (but not like Fiona's definition!) and I'm just a hanger on when it comes to the serious stuff. But I love being around you guys and you've all made me feel a part of the ultra scene. Your friendship and support is what keeps me going.
Now to those comments. All 16 of them! There is some seriously good stuff in there.
Karen D - I definitely shouldn't look too far into the future. Big mistake trying to figure what's going to happen in a few months, I just don't know. Cliched I know but I have to take it one day at a time.
John and Fiona - I like the analogy of just thinking ahead to the next checkpoint. Don't think about getting to the end just focus on the next step. I like that.
DQ - Just knowing you're thinking about me is more powerful than any words of wisdom x
Bobby - I can't believe we've known each other for over 20 years! That's scary. I know you know. And I'm VERY relieved you won't be there to burn out my clutch!!!
Thomas - Exercise definitely helps. I see Clark my personal torturer twice a week. He's a brilliant PT and a very good friend (and a nag!) And he lets me punch him ;-)
Anon - I'm not going to shoot you down. I've had a brush with depression in the recent past and I'm all too aware of its symptoms. I've done a Mental Health First Aid course in my professional life and would have no difficulty with admitting if I was depressed (BTW please put your name at the bottom of your posts so I know who you are for sure)
Tim - You know that I know I'm an intelligent resourceful woman but sometimes I just want someone else to take the strain for a wee while. I'm not ashamed to ask for help. In fact, this afternoon I saw a counsellor. Message me your phone number and I will phone you sometime!
Geraldine - It means a lot to me that you guys are thinking about me x
Pete - I am definitely gonna claim a big hug from you the next time I see you. You have been warned!! I know that it looks like I might be depressed (I'm open to the suggestion) but really I was reacting to something specific. I know I don't have to write it all down online. I feel absolutely no pressure to write for an audience. I am writing this for me. It's a bonus that people are reading it and responding. And if I didn't make it public then I wouldn't have had this amazing support.
Flip - Not inadequate at all. A kind thought means a lot to me.
Lee - I want everyone to know that you are an amazing woman. You have literally given me back my life. I am honoured to call you my friend xxxxxxx
Dave - I just don't have the words. I can say anything to you and you tell me like it is. No sugar coating. What did I do to deserve you and Lee? You are MY mentor xxxxxxx
Ali - Thank you for being there. Looking forward to catching up tomorrow
Kenny - Trying to make sense of stuff in the wee small hours isn't a great idea. I have seen my GP and I have 2 very good friends who are GPs and they are all keeping an eye on me. It's natural that my eating and sleeping patterns are disrupted but I have confidence that they'll get back to normal in due course.
So have I reassured you that I'll be ok? I know it won't happen quickly. It has been pointed out to me on many occasions that I'm not good in situations where I have no control. This is all out of my control and that's what I'm finding difficult to handle. But I'm getting professional help with that. It's illuminating!
So how do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time! Bit like how I'm coping with this.