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I'm a 45 year old mother of 3 boys. I live in a beautiful old house that needs a lot of TLC with my youngest son and 2 dogs. I am working hard at keeping myself healthy and fit by working out and doing a spot of running. I'm a creative person and am passionate about keeping traditional skills alive. I cook, knit, bake, garden, preserve, read, write and am now learning to spin and quilt. Oh and I sometimes swear.....

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Bumps, Lumps and........

Can't actually think of anything else that rhymes that would make sense!!

Where has this last week (and a bit) gone?  I have been so busy I can't even remember what I've been up to.  But I do remember meeting Phil Spencer from Channel 4's Location Location Location.  He was lovely and didn't mind when I gushed 'I'm a big fan. Can I have my photo taken with you?' (I know - cringe!!) But what a genuinely lovely person.  And I remember going to the Run with Wind 10k in Strathaven too.  My fingers were blue from removing chips from several hundred trainers!  But twas lovely to meet up with good friends.

I have been very good writing for 2 hours most days on my NaNoWriMo project.  I'm a bit behind on my daily word target but am so chuffed that I've got into the discipline of writing every day.  And despite my best efforts I spell check at the end of every hour!  I just can't bear to see those little red and green squiggles under my words!  But I don't re write or change anything. That's a huge improvement on previous attempts.

First the bumps.  I seem to be covered in bruises!  I'm doing a lot of sorting and clearing out.  I keep walking into things while I'm carrying stuff and I've fallen over a few boxes.  And I stubbed my toe on the wheelie bin when I was putting yet another bag in it.  Good job it's winter and I'm usually well covered up so they're not visible.

And now the lump.  I have an appt at the breast clinic next Wednesday morning.  So far I have been trying not to think too much about it but it creeps into my head in the wee small hours.  I know all the statistics point to it being nothing to worry about it.  But someone has to be the 1 in 10.  Why should I hope that it's someone else and not me?

I believe in karma.  I believe we get what we deserve in life and when bad things happen there is a purpose.  I don't believe in a higher power but I believe in the collective power of the universe and every person in it.  So I am asking the universe and everyone I know to give me the result I deserve on Wednesday.  Whatever you believe in can I ask that you spare a few moments to send me some positive healing thoughts/prayers/wishes over the coming week?  Even raise a glass if you don't believe in any of that mumbo jumbo shit.

I'm not ashamed to say that I am scared shitless and I need a wee bit of help to get through this.

Thanks xxx

18 comments:

Lee Maclean said...

It goes without saying chick I'm sending all the positive thoughts I can muster.
xxx

Fiona Rennie said...

Sending you loads of positive vibes, I'll even raise a glass too. xxx

John Kynaston said...

Well done on the novel ... keep going!

We'll be continuing to pray for you as you get your results on Wednesday.

Love

JK & Mrs JK

Anonymous said...

....and Thumps?? xx

allybea said...

Thanks Lee, Fiona and John. It really means a lot to me.

Anon - yeah I thought of thumps, grumps or flumps but couldn't work it into my post!

Loon Dod said...

I don't believe in any of that mumbo jumbo shit. Cheers, thinking of you over a pint of G&T

Davie said...

I always regard my higher power as being there for me. There must be a higher power than me. God help us all if I'm the highest power there is!
So I'll speak to mine to see if he has any influence on you. But I'll raise a glass too, just in case George has it right.

Davie said...

And re rhyme; George had one although I don't think it was intentional when he talked about the mumbo jumbo...... Dumps?

allybea said...

Cheers George and Davie. And I should have thought of dumps! Doh! Bumps, lumps and down in the dumps!

Santababy said...

think i prefer flumps, used to get the dumps on my birthday from my 3big brothers it hurt!
Huge amount of positive thoughts coming your way for wednesday, easy for me to say but try not to dwell on it til then.Oh, and i'll join George & Davie for that drink i think... take care

Debbie Martin-Consani said...

Pumps :-)

I honestly believe everything happens for a reason!

Love you lots, honey. xx

allybea said...

Thanks Sandra, I need every positive thought.

Pumps Debs? You obviously spend too much time with smelly boys!! Thanks hun xxx

Anonymous said...

Lots of love and thoughts from Neal and I. See you soon xxx Caroline

Muriel said...

Fingers crossed that the news is good. But, even if it isn't quite so good, then early diagnosis is much better than late diagnosis - outcomes are improving all the time. In the meantime, I'm hoping that it's just one of those things - and there's nothing to worry about.
Lots of love, Muriel.

allybea said...

Thanks Caroline and Muriel x

Team Target said...

Positive thinking!!! Simples! (oh, I've blogged!!!)

Anonymous said...

Thinking lots of good thoughts for you for tomorrow.

Peter Duggan said...

Extra-powerful positive thoughts winging your way right now, Ali! :-)

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