Can't actually think of anything else that rhymes that would make sense!!
Where has this last week (and a bit) gone? I have been so busy I can't even remember what I've been up to. But I do remember meeting Phil Spencer from Channel 4's Location Location Location. He was lovely and didn't mind when I gushed 'I'm a big fan. Can I have my photo taken with you?' (I know - cringe!!) But what a genuinely lovely person. And I remember going to the Run with Wind 10k in Strathaven too. My fingers were blue from removing chips from several hundred trainers! But twas lovely to meet up with good friends.
I have been very good writing for 2 hours most days on my NaNoWriMo project. I'm a bit behind on my daily word target but am so chuffed that I've got into the discipline of writing every day. And despite my best efforts I spell check at the end of every hour! I just can't bear to see those little red and green squiggles under my words! But I don't re write or change anything. That's a huge improvement on previous attempts.
First the bumps. I seem to be covered in bruises! I'm doing a lot of sorting and clearing out. I keep walking into things while I'm carrying stuff and I've fallen over a few boxes. And I stubbed my toe on the wheelie bin when I was putting yet another bag in it. Good job it's winter and I'm usually well covered up so they're not visible.
And now the lump. I have an appt at the breast clinic next Wednesday morning. So far I have been trying not to think too much about it but it creeps into my head in the wee small hours. I know all the statistics point to it being nothing to worry about it. But someone has to be the 1 in 10. Why should I hope that it's someone else and not me?
I believe in karma. I believe we get what we deserve in life and when bad things happen there is a purpose. I don't believe in a higher power but I believe in the collective power of the universe and every person in it. So I am asking the universe and everyone I know to give me the result I deserve on Wednesday. Whatever you believe in can I ask that you spare a few moments to send me some positive healing thoughts/prayers/wishes over the coming week? Even raise a glass if you don't believe in any of that mumbo jumbo shit.
I'm not ashamed to say that I am scared shitless and I need a wee bit of help to get through this.
- I'm a 45 year old mother of 3 boys. I live in a beautiful old house that needs a lot of TLC with my youngest son and 2 dogs. I am working hard at keeping myself healthy and fit by working out and doing a spot of running. I'm a creative person and am passionate about keeping traditional skills alive. I cook, knit, bake, garden, preserve, read, write and am now learning to spin and quilt. Oh and I sometimes swear.....