Every now and then someone will ask me why I’ve talked about a particular topic on this blog. I could say why not? People keep a blog for different reasons. My other blog was to share info about supporting runners in ultra events with a bit about my life thrown in. This blog is my personal journey through some very difficult times. If you don’t like it, don’t read it. I don’t mind.
When I started writing I said I wanted it to be a record of my journey. I wanted to be able to look back and measure how far I’d travelled. I was writing it for me although I knew that my friends would be reading it too. I sometimes go back and read the early posts and think how naive I was. I genuinely had no idea how bad it would get.
So why did I write about hitting rock bottom yesterday? I hoped that it might help someone else one day. So many people have said lovely things about how they think I’m amazing or inspirational. I’m really not. Some days I struggle to get out of bed, some days I don’t eat, some days I don’t do any housework (ok that’s not a new thing!!) I’m just trying to make sense of stuff that doesn’t actually make sense to me. Writing it down helps me look at it in a different light. Not everything I write makes it on to the blog!
And if I hadn’t gone public with a lot of stuff (here and on FB) then I wouldn’t get the brilliant emails, texts and FB messages that I get. Sometimes people just want me to know they’re thinking about me, sometimes they share their experiences and what helped them. And sometimes I get the TTFU ones too! It all makes a huge difference.
This morning I had 2 lovely emails waiting for me. One told me a very inspiring story and the other told me something that really made my day. In fact I’m still smiling! Taking a few minutes to tell someone you’re thinking about them can change their day.
So, down to business. First proper swim session tomorrow with someone who is going to help me with my technique. Eeeeek! This might just turn into a training blog if I can work out how to do the spreadsheet thingy ;-) xxx