Something happened to me this week. Not quite sure how or why but I seem to have all the confidence sucked out of me. And no amount of arse kicking from the usual suspects has helped.
Training for the triathlon gave me a focus. It gave me something else to think about. Frankly, it filled my head and pushed out the other crap that is in there. Without it, I have no motivation to do anything.
I have been asked loads of times this week if I'm still going to take part. I honestly don't know. It's not looking good. A month without any swimming, cycling or running isn't really the best prep for any event. And a month without any serious exercise has meant that I've put on half a stone. Not great for boosting confidence either.
I'm not looking for sympathy, I'm just expressing surprise that I feel this way about it. Kinda unexpected that I'm crumbling at a time when I really should be getting better at handling everything that life is throwing at me.
- I'm a 45 year old mother of 3 boys. I live in a beautiful old house that needs a lot of TLC with my youngest son and 2 dogs. I am working hard at keeping myself healthy and fit by working out and doing a spot of running. I'm a creative person and am passionate about keeping traditional skills alive. I cook, knit, bake, garden, preserve, read, write and am now learning to spin and quilt. Oh and I sometimes swear.....